i did it

2004-12-13 - 11:16 p.m.

Today I did something that has terrified me. I have desperately needed to do it, have dreaded it and avoided it and obsessed about not doing it, and tonight with no conscious forethought and in a very casual manner, I just said it.

It went well. I think it was the delivery. I conveyed the information, but in an offhand, btw manner that didn't alarm or estrange. I feel relieved.

This is an unusual feeling for me. The psychiatrist would be proud of me.

Deep breath. All right. what next?

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